Yup, I XXXXX You
X = L
X = O
X = V
X = E
X = D
That my heart answers...
But for my own, i don’t know whether it true or not.
For you, i had think NEGETIVELY answer
That u will answer back to me.
I had think many thing that match on this word.
HATED,
LIKED,
ADORE,
CARED,
CHEAT,
SHOCK,
ABUSE,
TOUCH,
TRUST,
LOSED,
HUGED,
And
I scared...
Will you leave me alone?
I had always missing you too much,
And i can’t imagine how huge the sky is.
When the sky are bright and cloudy,
It told me that you are fine, and okay;
When the sky rains, thunderstorm,
It told me that you are suffering, sad, and mad,
I Know I’m too stupid, imagine those nonsenses.
This is why I’m always trusting the sky that
Will giving that courage to me,
Will always tell me the truth,
Will always giving the clues,
Will also giving me to see your shadow.
Your shadow faded away,
My heart sank deeply,
Those unrecognized shadow,
Those almost have the same shadow of you,
I will go to chase it,
Although i haven’t confirm that is yours,
I will still go for chase for it,
You see? How foolish i am?
This can’t be blame the power of love
Love is blind, you say me blind,
I admitted it, because I’m in loved,
You are such beautiful like a rose,
Even i blind, i will also say u are beautiful,
Or also says beautiful than a rose,
Although i have not ever seen a rose before,
You will say to me that i lied you,
Because I’m blind,
One blind and a dumb
From my P.o.V.,
They are a perfect couple,
I think the chance for them to find their true loved
Is harder than us
I feel pity and thankful to God.
I’m really sorry for everything
Just because of scare will hurting you,
All that is because i really don’t want to lose you,
Just because of the way u treating me before,
Really can’t forget because of you,
Plus, I still missing you so much,
Sorry because last night I can’t control my feeling,
Tear drop on my phone,
Before i calling you,
i have force myself to stop all the tear to drop,
Forced but still drop little by little,
But i really can’t controlled all the tear
When u drop the phone, my tear drop too,
I had been so stupid these days,
When you beside me, i say i confused
Can’t do work properly, until the sixth round
I writhed wrong marking to your friends
But the result had come out,
You not competing with the Malay,
But is a girl which name Jane.
Your friends tell me I’m wrong le,
So, i also fooled myself, so the pairing
Also must rearranged,
So, the computer also had put you
In to the battle against Malay and not Jane anymore
Because i scared u will lose,
I don’t wanna see you lose anymore,
I don’t wanna see your unhappy face anymore,
It hurt me!
After putting you with the Malay,
I also can relax myself a bit
And i haven crogratz you yet, right?
Congratulation! Happy to see back your smile
Telling me you are satisfy with your result,
Just because of small careless mistake
It also had changed to happy ending,
Actually i had been thinking of
You while I’m recording the marks
I lied to you, says that because you confused me
I wanted to tell you something yesterday
You seem like want to hear it but...
I still lack of courage
Crying because of i don’t wanted
To End Yesterday just like that
Sad-ding because of don’t wan to making you jealous
But i see these 3 day end just
Like wind blowing thru my face,
I really don’t know why this happening to me,
I had been wishing u to win for all the Mssmkl
But i had saw that u lose 1 round of all round
You say you unhappy
so i just comforting you, but you still unhappy
Keep wishing that yesterday will be wonderful day,
For you maybe it meant to
For me, totally reversed,
I still can accept the fate
But feeling i can’t control it
Following you every step
Keep watching in you
Actually the girl i like is the one who
"Keep swinging at a swing that change mood every time"
I like seeing u smile, i feel safe, telling me you are fine
But when u sad, I’m use to comfort u, but i failed too
I just pretending to be as a friend comforting you
I know some time you hate me because I’m a boy
Who scared
Who brave less
Because I’m a sensitive person
All my friend asking me that you with me could be
You know what I answered them?
She is my friend only
They say that impossible, because we two are so close
I can’t understand why?
They say I lied them, but it a truth!
Lie to each other, i don’t wish too,
But I’m a bit happy because of them
Maybe i like you gua, you know why?
Because I damn idiot!
Friends ? Hope? Single?
All spinning around my head,
You always keep asking me those singles are good, rite?
And couple are suck, rite?
For me, wrong !
Single and Couple are suck too!
Because single, will make a person wants to fall in love!
Because single, i feel so jealous!
Because single, will hurt a person if he chased you!
Because single, i feel so stupid!
Because single, freedom? Make me walked wrong step!
Because single, it a point to restart.
Because single, no more people will pinch me!
Because single, memories flashed back!
Because single, make two person so naive!
Because single, im sick(gle) !
Haiz, that why i always "haiz"
And you ask me why?
I’m sad and you asking me why im sad?
I love the way u asking me back,
But why I’m sad?
Because all the answer i had been express out to here
I damned to miss you that much
That too good if I’m same school with you, i wish too
Not wish, is begging to the sky
This is maybe all the thing that will be the way it are
I liked you, i really don’t know,
since i giving u the bdgift gua,
I had always always ... liked the way you are,
Last night, bout 12am ,i came out from home,
I feel so uncomfortable when I’m at home,
So, i went to garden, it still rain out there,
I silently sneak out from home,
Seem my family all had slept,
I had decided to call you when i arrived at garden,
At garden, no people, road light are lighted,
Raining...without umbrella, sitting...
Middle in the garden, I had found your phone number,
But i scared to press call,
Actually, i wanted to called you
To ask whether you are mad at me,
I’m sorry, please forgive me,
Wanted to say i miss you so much,
But i cant, i knew that you are in a bad mood,
I scared you will not notice me anymore
If i the one who only disturbed you,
You will be pissed off!
So i had waiting for my hand to press it,
Thinking what to say...
45minit had passed, my body whole wet,
I had cried for missing you
My phone have also have some line problem,
Suddenly changed to U-Moblie and Maxis
I use DiGi, but not listed there.
Finally, i had press call!
But you don’t wanted to answer me,
4 times le,sudden my phone dead already,
I so nervous, i think the phone dead because of rain water,
But it stills work and it on back!
What a relief, i called u the fifth time
And you finally answered,
I ask you whether mad at me or not for a few times?
You say, No,
And say wanted to be alone for a time
And drop the phone call,
I cried again afterward,
Cried in the middle of the rain,
Throw my phone on the wooden chair,
And think,
Realize i should tell you something in my heart,
So i decided to write u yesterday
That msg that i sent to you.
And finish about 2am,
Rain also stopped at 1am.
I feel so cool, chilling,
And sneezing.
So, i lie-ing on the wooden chair,
Thinking what happen to you,
My heart so silent that time,
I so confuse...
No! Not confuse anymore,
Damn! Cried again, for missing you so much,
For liked you so much,
I already knew i can’t sleep that night,
So i decide to force myself to sleep by
Eating the tranquilizer pill.
And i can’t help it,
But deep in my heart that always
Wanted to say to you is I Loved You...
Today, i woke up, with my strange look,
My tear dry up, dried on my face,
Actually, i can’t think back properly after i had
Having those pill from my parent silently,
My father directs bring me to clinic this morning,
Because I’m having a high fever,
So, the doctor had tell me that my
Respiratory System has some problem,
Hard to breath, because of high fever,
Cause the pharynx to swollen, had blocked
Doctor had taken the picture inside of
My mouth and my nose,
I scared, and called the doctor to give me
Some stronger medicine to fast recover,
He gave me all the controlled medicine,
And a bottle kind of thing to make
My respiratory system smooth,
And it all cost me about RM 200!
I’m sorry, really sorry
I had promised not to disturb you,
And take care of yourself properly,
I had deactivate my FB acct for these day,
Force me not to see your acct, and everything,
I just wanted to stay at home,
Although i hate to staying at home,
All i wanted to do, is to keep me quiet in my room
Try to force myself not to think of you too much,
But most of all,
If you hated me
Sorry That I Loved You
Lastly,
I
ALWAYS
WANTED TO
IS
♥™~～
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