End of March, I think of you all the night,
Been ‘Night’-Dream all the night,
All never mind, i know it’s useless,
But the thing gets even better than before J
The tear just drop for a while,
And I’m smile back to say I’m strong enough!
I never though i will let out of it just a while
And I know I’m strong enough to offend,
The feeling that I always share with some other,
Before…
Gone immediately…
And I’m always know
How to return back my heart to myself
To avoid the scratch, scar and wound.
And of course there will a little sadness for a while
Just because of sadness,
And I’m suffered, frustrated
I’m tried, really tried,
For every night thinking of you
Sometimes I think 8 hour of sleep
Are not enough for me?
"I love three things,
The sun, the moon and you,
The sun is for day,
The moon is for night,
And you is for ever,"
Yes, it a lie~
I never say I will wait you forever,
Because i know, it’s a lie,
I don’t like to cheat, seriously,
Forever? Mean till the end of life?
NO, even end of the world
It still happening ::>_<::
I think, X.X
If I’m not exist in this world,
Will everything change?
Will everything be okay?
Think those nonsenses
And you can know I’m useless,
Right?
So don’t judge me,
Me, will always, always be the loser,
Loser of anything, all of it,
I really, really down these day,
Last April 1st,
April fool? shockness won’t appear with the exist of sadness
In side of my heart,
Sorrow won’t be covered by happy moment,
Just because i had always think of myself as a useless
Even though I dream I’m your partner,
I think i couldn’t make it
Coz i think it hard for me to do so,
And I know, for you,
You won’t with me this kind of useless.
What if I’m forgetting about you?
What if I’m hurting myself cause of you?
What if I’m told you i love you so?
What if I’m the one who being abandon?
What if I’m run from home just try to avoid all of it?
What if I’m giving up all of my hopes?
It shines so bright when I’m hoping something
I’m speechless when hopeless,
I’m will always be okay when I’m in trouble
I’m always will smile when I’m sad
It a kind of neutrality
If I’m happy, of course i will also be smile,
Hopping on my bed, rolling with my blanket
And 1 thing:
You will only know initially when I’m just starting to sad,
But you won’t able to know I’m sad when I’m sad whole night,
Even my feeling at the end,
This is because I just need a little time to fit myself
I will either pretend to smile or just put on a mask
It seem normal cause mostly human will do it like that when they sad
Or just tell all the sadness to their love one or close one,
Whisper, gossip, will make a person healed.
Add it with a little of jokes, sense of humor,
Will cure the person’s loneliness,
But unfortunately, I had lost my true friend seen primary school,
And yet i also had lost my trustiness to people, i mean human,
Not everyone is suitable for your friend for life,
It just like a treasure, of course everyone wan it so badly,
No one can understand my life story,
Guide me! Through all the heaven steps,
I wish i had a person that who can hear my voice,
Always by my side accompany me to listen my own story
And yet, of course i will also listen her/him life story too!
Wishes and hopes?
Are the same?
Now, i just can keep back my own entire story,
Just in to my heart,
Let it bleed,
Let it broke,
Let it scratch,
Let it crush,
Let it BE,
The bunch of words, paragraph
(I think is better to call a plumber to fix the pipe: Prevent blockage of alphabet)
I will keep it deeply in my heart,
When is the right time to heal, cure, and fix
And my guardian angel will appear
When the time is right,
Is the right time to break,
Let it be break,
I didn’t mind if it break,
Because i never appreciate what i had get before this
So, still the same,
Let It Be…
♥™~～
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